i love love love my lord so so much
Can you blame me?? no. you cant. i just wish i was better you know?
i wish i didnt suck so much, i wish i didnt curse so much. or lie. i wish i didnt hate who i was. i wish i didnt hate people when i do the same thing. i hate hypocrites, and i am that what i hate.
i have a lot of events in my life, 18 years worth lol. but i know that god has always been a part of it. i remember not having such a good childhood. i would pray outside to god about making my dad happy one day. that he would stop hitting me and we could be friends for real. i was aware that i wasnt the perfect child but no one deserved to get hit to the point where they question wether they should continue to live or not.
and like god was listening, once i moved out, i didnt talk to my family for a bit, but once i did it was wonderful. my dad was like a different person to me. he was nice and we actually started saying "i love you" to each other. hes kind and its like he never did anything in the first place. maybe it was the fact that he missed me being god. but i like to think god had something to do with it. everything falls into place when you put your trust in him.